yoohoo.. yes you.

as i gaze into those almond eyes
and that mischievous smile
i can't help but ask myself,
why do i allow myself to fall?

how your skin brushes up to me accidentally
or as you come up and talk to me,
your mere presence sends unexplainable feelings
much as i cannot decipher..

we share such excruciating distance;
when you're near, i cannot think clearly
but whenever you're out of sight,
my mind wanders to where you are.

the silly things you say or do cheer me up
while i try my best to hide my smile
just pretending nonchalantly as a friend
and that i see you nothing more than that..

my psyche

here again, am writing about the feelings that crack me up.
the stupidity that overwhelms this emotional woman.
for all the pain that caused every tear in her eyes.
for every smile that tried to mask a million cries.
for every hope she made that the pain would numb her already.
for those nights she lay awake,
if not slept with loneliness by her side.
for all the martyrdom.
for all the insanity.
for all the times her heart and mind battled.

for all the times she wished to die.
i am the antagonist of my own monster..but i can't summon a fight.

initial post.

hell yeah. just trying this out.